Bleeding Heart

I wish I could say you were more relevant in my life,

But everytime you message me it feels like fight or flight,

I can't deal with not loving you one more night,

We are "together" but it doesn't even feel that way,

We were stangers at first and still are to this day,

I am unable to be happy with you,

Some days I wish this wasen't true,

But when I see what we should be I turn blue,

You're the opposite of what I want,

Without effort you act like a cunt,

I need someone to at least at like they care,

You love do what a significant other is supposed to do,

I just can't do it anymore it's tearing me apart,

Ripping at my inside and breaking my heart,

I can't even say I love you to you anymore,

If I did it would be a lie,

While talking to you I feel alone,

Like a king who lost everything sitting on his throne,

I see only red when I look at you,

Sadly I do something I shouldn't do,

I compare you to other girls out there,

Making it hard to look at you the same,

I yearn for someone to care for me,

Don't just seem like a bitch,

Sorry I'm pretty picky but I don't ask for much,

I mean I'm just asking for some compassion,

Not so little that it is has to be rationed,

Sorry that I feel this way it's simply the truth,

I loved you at one time but not anymore,

I lost all of the love I had for you even at my core.